Ok I just started to get better, I was ready to go back to work...I didn't want to but I was ready! Now this!
I don't deny that I didn't feel that close to my aunt, or the rest of my family on my mom's side. However, they were the only family I had while I grew up. My aunt is also my namesake. I'm really upset that no one, absolutely no one in my family, felt the need to at least mention that my aunts cancer was terminal. I'm on face book with five of them, and none of them could bother mentioning it to me.
She was one of the only people who bothered to show to my fathers funeral. Even though she knew she would get sea sick, she showed. WTF! I have a lot of anger about that, and this is just bringing it all to the forefront.
I know people die, I understand that. I understand that 90% of my family is a lot older than me, and I will loose them all closely to each other. I really didn't expect this!
She started with stage 1 cancer, and because the asshole md's didn't treat her lymph nodes, or they failed to see they were affected, it progressed into stage 4 terminal cancer.
They have started the funeral planning process. She is meeting with a spiritual counselor today. I'm just at a loss, and still numb.
It's all sinking in, but it hasn't completely hit me.
